On Tracking the Ups.

Nope, not that UPS delivery service company eventhough you can track them as well. 

Again, mood stabiliser doesn’t work like cocaine. It helps you with the brain, but still yourself is the one who gives the consent to feel. Remembering the downs is definitely easier then remembering the ups. Bad memories stay longer. But usually what brings you down, lift you up. 

Mine is working or anything related to work. Yes. I’m not just a lazy-ass procrastinator, I’m also a workaholic. I dunno if its true, but my best friend said, she could see this sparks in my eyes whenever I get new interesting job. I kinda believe in her cause I once noticed this thing really happened and I really felt how my mood change. 

It was Saturday evening. A night out. We (me and my friend just called her Monti) went out for drinks and karaoke at local cafe. Suddenly. Depression kicked in. Crippling anxiety joined. Tears went down together with early 2000s Emo playlist. Fk. Bad mood. Still the same night. escaping the cafe crowd. BOOM! Red Grape mixed with wheat. Back to the cafe for toilet. Someone called me and heeeey! Dear, you! Where are you all this time? Stop your job as cultural whore already? Well, we got some news for you! We hope you could join us as spokesperson. 

TA TA TAAA! 

Still the same night. Mood became too good. Manic. Club Hopping. Dance like a moron. Good night. 

Until now, they never contact me, and neither do I. But let’s just remember this to show that, at least there’s something that could make me feel happier.